You can’t have everything going well or perfect in your life. It upsets the balance. And apparently trying to hide your submission of the bad stuff also upsets the balance.
Trying to keep the peace- I naturally keep my feelings to myself. Painting what I thought was a half way decent picture of happiness and tranquility. To keep the negatives away until alone in the dark of the night it was safe to cry. Trying to be outwardly strong and resilient for my whole family. Only relaying the necessary feelings.
This method has both served me well and blown up in my face. And while the bad always comes with the good. I wish for once I could keep my feelings and not feel like I have failed.
A certain sense of turmoil has erupted within me… I’m still not sure which is right, but then if I knew I wouldn’t be here writing my mental/emotional throw up again.
Maybe I’m hoping someone will read this and understand me a little better. Maybe I’m hoping that this will stop the emotional storm I’m in. Maybe, maybe.
Until the next curve ball…(maybe next time I’ll remember my mitt)
“Like water which can clearly mirror the sky and the trees only so long as its surface is undisturbed, the mind can only reflect the true image of the Self when it is tranquil and wholly relaxed.”—Indra Devi (via heartmindspirit)
Three people go into a restaurant and order a meal, the bill comes to £25. They each give £10, the waiter brings back £5 change. They each take back £1, and leave the remaining £2 for the waiter as a tip.
So, they gave £10 and got £1 back, which means they spent £9 each. OK £9 x 3= £27 + £2 (for the waiter) = £29. What happened to the missing pound ?
wow… when you get caught up in life- it kinda passes you by. I know I am standing at another cross roads in my life- another chapter waiting to squeeze into the bindings of my life - another story waiting to be told…and like every other writer out there- I have writers block.
I can’t see where the next stroke of my pen will go or where the next page will me, I don’t even know all the characters yet.
Someone wise told me that we get only horribly angry with those we love and trust unconditionally because we believe that because of that love and trust they will understand and forgive us this failing.
I know that, that is how the Lord works we can get angry with him but he never forsakes us. He knows we are angry and blowing off steam and what not. But he is always there when it’s over saying ‘now that you’ve gotten that out of your system… Let’s chat about it’
This is unconditional love. This is the same love I have for my husband and my beautiful girls. This is the love I have for my family. No matter what happens or what is said I will never loose that I will never deny my love.
I just love you.
(*thank you, Brandon for everything you are to me.)
People wonder at me when they learn that I am on not 1 not 2 but more than 5 social media sites. It’s because the more I search and seek the more I find I am missing. And by connecting all of them I am able to share my own thoughts questions and otherwise with you.
So yes, I tweet, I facebook and myspace and blogger and typepad and tumblr. I am on linkedIn and I use ping. I do this to know. To be. To breathe. And to share.
Care to join me?
“remember this and remember it well: a leader is only a leader as far as you choose to follow them. you are only led along by the ones you willingly follow. do not blame your leaders for bringing ruin when you have always had the exact same potential as they.”—(via vibestream)